I thought the MGMT line was appropriate for how I'm feeling right now (the title of this post). It's getting harder and harder to wake up in the morning. I feel more drained at the end of the day. I think the high of being in Korea is starting to wear off. I know the area I'm living in fairly well now. There are still lots of things that are completely new to me, but that is normally explored on the weekends, which feel like they are getting shorter and shorter. The worst part about the hours I work is that I miss the best parts of the day. I go to work in the colder morning and I get home at the brink of night. I miss the beautiful fall sun shinning weather during the day. Fall is my favorite time of year and I feel like I'm missing it.
I got my first set of bills today. The thing that really stinks about it, is that I've never paid for a living expense besides food until now (THANK YOU MOM AND DAD!), which is a great and lucky thing. Not only am I unsure how to pay it, since we don't have checks here, but I have no idea how to read it! It's all in Korean, so I know the amount, but not what it's for. One of them, I don't think is for me, but there's no way to be sure. Thankfully I have friends who read Korean and can help me. There are also teachers here who have paid bills who can tell me how.
I love adult life and being on my own, but figuring all out and the daily grind are so taxing. I just find myself more tired than normal. I feel like I did back when I had 3 20 page papers due in a week. Even that didn't last as long as this will. Hopefully, I'll get used to it again. Most of my teachers think I'm a little crazy for going home for Christmas, most think I should take the opportunity to travel. I've done a decent amount of travelling in Asia as it is (though there is still MUCH to see), I think a trip home is needed. I miss my family, normal Cheetos, American t.v. and internet. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE Korea. This is truly an amazing country, but I miss my people and my culture.
That's my little existential rant for the night, I'm sure I'll feel more upbeat towards the weekend. At least it's Wednesday - hump day! Only two more days till sweet sleeping freedom.
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